Lately so it seems, I've been thinking a lot about my future, and about where I am going from here, and it hasn't been easy. Surely where I am now in my life I am thankful for what I have, but it seems that there is so much more, but I don't know what it is.
In prayers everyday I am often wondering, and asking God for some kind of direction, but haven't really heard anything or maybe I am not listening. I know God put me here for a reason and He supposedly has some kind of plan for all of us, however I don't know what mine is.
Work has been extremely tough lately, and as a matter of fact it doesn't seem to be getting any easier; So what do I do? Well the only thing I can do is keep on asking God for direction and if he is answering me at all I can only hope that I will hear Him one of these times, and hope that it isn't to late.
Work is getting so tough lately I am finding it a lot more difficult to get up in the morning, and this isn't good or maybe it is just dealing with life in general. Probably the latter. It seems I missed my boat and it isn't coming back anytime soon.
There are so many things in life that I have tried, but to know avail, thus, the reason why I feel so lost. It is tough when you feel that you want to do something in life to serve, and when it isn't acknowledged it makes for a difficult task to carry on. The only thing that is keeping me going is perhaps hope in faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, but He isn't here right in front of me telling me where I am going, what my future holds. I am like a lost sheep and I can't find my way home.
It is discouraging, and what makes it worse; I don't have any idea. I don't really know how to set goals, therefore I really don't have any goals, and this is certainly killing me. He has plans for me, but what are they? How come I don't get it? Why am I here Lord? Why? What is it Lord that You want me to do with my life? What direction do You want me to go in? What is Your goal for me because I don't know?
As I close this blog there are a couple of scriptures I want to add from the NASB Bible, starting with 1 Samuel 9: 11-14
11 As they went up the slope to the city, they found young women going out to draw water and said to them, " Is the seer here?" 12 They answered them and said, " He is; see, he is ahead of you. Hurry now, for he has come into the city today, for the people have a sacrifice on the high place today. 13 As soon as you enter the city you will find him before he goes up to the high place to eat, for the people will not eat until he comes, because he must bless the sacrifice; afterward those who are invited will eat. Now therefore , go up for you will find him at once." 14 So they went up to the city. As they came into the city, behold, Samuel was coming out toward them to go up to the high place.
Hebrews 11:8
By faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed by going out to a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was going.
Psalm 82:5
They do not know nor do they understand; They walk about in darkness; All the foundations of the earth are shaken.
Psalm 107:27
They reeled and staggered like a drunkin man, And were at their wits end.
There are so many more scripture verses that have to do with this blog, but I can't write them all. I do hope who ever reads this understands what I am talking about. These are just a tip of the iceberg. If there are any questions about this blog, I will try to answer them to the best of my ability.
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